Okay! I just got back from a long day at work and school and just soothed my troubled soul with all of your most excellent reviews. Thank you all so very much!
MrsMosley wrote:
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“This isn’t even his ship. It’s a probe that was sent to see if Superman could live here. He told me so.”
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Did he really tell her that?
Nope. He didn't. Not exactly, anyway. Clark was doing one of his "not really a lie, not really a truth" things when they were with Bureau 39. <shakes head at him>
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Her fingers traced the S almost reverently, and Clark looked away, feeling as if he were intruding on something that was not his right to see.
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Another case of Clark being jealous of himself?
Maybe, but I think it's something more than that.
Haven't you give us enough angst without throwing Luthor in? You mean, mean woman!
I may be mean, but as for the answer to your question...<ponders deeply>. No. There is always room for more angst.
That scene on the roof... oh my god. I can see him standing on the edge, looking down. And then having to witness that car accident. It is so... so...
I am just speechless.
I'm glad you liked it. I got the whole rooftop scene idea some time ago, around chapter 9 or 10 or so...so I think you can see where the darker tone of that part came from. Thank you so much for your review, MrsMosley! And thanks for saving me by starting an FDK!
woody wrote:
Another wonderfully written chapter. You bring the characters pain to life so well I don't think I'll ever forget this story.
As far as your "homelessness", your place is with the great writers.

Wow.

Thanks, Woody. But as for my place being with the great writers...I'm working on it, and I hope I'm making progress.

Thanks for reviewing!
Doublel wrote:
Clark you can't hide anymore. Get some more sun. Superman is needed bigtime.
Yeah. I think Clark needs Superman more than anyone, right now. Thanks for reviewing!
Jessi-the-"untalented" wrote:
I'm glad Lois is finally showing some concern for Clark (for some reason I'm a total sucker for Lois being concerned about Clark's well-being).
I know...<beams>. I'm the same way. I hope you enjoy the next few chapters, then...Thanks so much for your review. It's great to hear from you, Jessi!
But I'm seriously going to kick someone if Lois doesn't find out soon
<runs and hides>
Wow, what a wonderful part!!! You can never make the part too long. I always think any part seems too short when it comes to this story, even this one. I'm not sure about the rating T or M but you better NOT stop posting here or I'll be devastated! I need my weekly fix.
lol. It's good to know that I'm not the only one addicted to this story! I'm glad to hear that my super-long chapters aren't too long for you. I know I'm a bit blabby, which is why this fic is so long already.

Don't worry. I've been posting on three sites all this time, and I'm not going to stop posting here, I promise!
One question, wasn't it Dr. Klein and not Dr. Hamilton who became Superman's Dr. on Lois & Clark? Dr. Hamilton was the one who brought the gangsters to life. Either one works for me, just wondering why you chose Dr. Hamilton.
Yeah. I'm trying to make this fic kind of into a sort of universal piece which branches over more than just LC, but it starts there and at leasts keeps its roots there. Hopefully that's not too much of a goal, but it seems that out there in general Dr. Hamilton is the doctor that is generally Supes' doctor. <shrugs>
jojo_da_crow wrote:
Oh wow... I'm crying here. Seriously. Not weeping crying, but tearing up non the less. Smirky that last bit was just heart wrenching. It was also beautifly written.
Thanks, Jojo! I'm glad I'm not the only one that had to use a tissue or two on that last part.<sniffs>
Can I tell you that your story is now the highlight of my week? I am starting to crave it! LOL There were so many good things about this chapter. I loved how honest he was with her about how terrified he was. Poor Clark. I hope he tells her soon and that they can gather together to help heal each other.

Thank you so much. You guys are so good at bolstering my self-confidence, that's for sure! And as for your addiction, I think after I'm done with "Darkest Dreams" we may have to start a therapy group to help us all quit.

I'll be the first to join.
I'm loving Clark too. Poor guy.
Thanks for your review!
Terry Leatherwood wrote:
Clark cannot tell Lois that he's Superman. Not while he's in this state. Right now, he believes that he's lost his purpose in life, that he's betrayed all of humanity, that he's let down everyone who ever thought highly of him. His sense of self has been wrapped up in his Superman identity, and now that he thinks that's gone, he doesn't believe that his life has any purpose. He no longer believes that he has any real reason to exist.
Well, I hope there's still some sense of at least a shadow of optimism that's left in Poor Clark. He is quite sure that his powers are going to come back, and he intends to move on as best as he can. The problem is that the present keeps sneaking up behind him and tackling him without warning. And the loss of sense isn't so much the Superman identity as the *part* of him that is Superman--the optimism, the fearlessness, and powers. His optimism has been shaken, the fearlessness has been completely shattered, and right now he's working his way back towards his powers. You're certainly right about Clark beating himself up about it, even though technically he knows it's not his fault. Senseless guilt is as apart of him as his powers are <affectionate sigh>.
I'm glad that Clark's continuance for secrecy makes sense to you. It certainly did for me! <sniffles>
When the rest of his powers finally return, will he be tempted to stop being Clark?
Hm. I don't think so. The weakness that he sees in himself scares him almost all the more by the fact that he feels he needs to recover enough to become Superman. Not just to save people with his powers, but to be figure that everyone recognizes as Superman. As it is, he's too shaken and affected by anything to hold up *any* front strong enough to be Superman. At least, as Clark, his own uncertainty can come through without question. In a way, I think it's safe to say that this stuttering Clark is more true of a picture than one the world has seen thus far, and that's what Clark is terrified about. He can't help it, it bugs Lois, and he realizes that even if she knows and even if Superman comes back, that stuttering Clark is not going to go away automatically. The poor guy needs some time and help.
Thanks for your review, Terry! If my musings above don't make sense, just ignore them. I kind of just type away at whatever thoughts come to my mind when I read these reviews, so who knows what might come out onto my keyboard?
symbolicangel wrote:
This moved me to tears--beyond words, in fact. I have three boys, and this is my worst nightmare. Forgive me if I'm unable to leave better feedback right now, but know that this chapter was beautifully written.
<sniffles> Thanks, symbolicangel! <offers a tissue and a comforting hug>
bakasi wrote:
Especially the last scene on the top of the roof was heart-wrenching. I loved every bit of it, I can feel Clark's helplessness and his terror.
Thanks, Bakasi! I appreciate your comments!
jwb wrote:
Why is Lois going on a date with Lex? I'm trying to understand her reasoning for this.
Lois is going because I want her to.
Just kidding. Really, you're right. I figured that Lex initially caught Lois off guard when they set up this date, when she was still quite shaken and thus just wanted to get rid of the man for the moment at least. However, they're still on relatively good terms at this point, and Lois has forgotten it until Lex called. She's still not thinking very clearly, but I figure she subconsciously supposes that she deserves a bit of a break, or maybe she just doesn't have the energy to really put towards convincing Lex to leave her alone. She might have tried, if Clark had been more insistent on keeping her attention, but at this point Clark's not being very insistent about anything, poor guy. I hope that kind of works for you.
I'm torn whether I want Clark to come clean or not with Lois. I can argue myself to both sides of that fence. Should Clark tell her, or should she figure it out herself? It will be good no matter what, I'm sure. What I like best about the story so far is the way it makes me feel. I feel the same things the characters feel. Especially Clark. Too cool.
You know, my favorite parts of reviews are when people say things like this! I write as I feel. I'm very connected to my writing, and I'm very glad it comes through on the other end. I've cried while writing, or I've simply had to get up and walk around because I felt sick or and awful for my poor characters (I really am far too cruel to them). Thank you so much for reviewing, jwb!
Thanks for your reviews, everyone! You guys make my day!
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