Skitz, you didn't pick up a bad one, on the contrary.
As far as i'm concerned, I'm not an expert in Lex's lines, nor in playing hangman, but I'll try to fill in some more blanks...totally wild guess.
"It's always such an -------------. Having to do ---- with -------. It's like announcing to the world that you know the ----- and the ------- to deal with the problems more creatively. I mean, there have been -----, naturally, when I've had to have ------ ----------, but it's always -------- me. I've always felt like I've let myself down somehow."
