Need to vent.... - 05/24/07 12:36 AM
Oh dear. I hope you all don’t mind, but I so need to vent. Why give that up I ask…but I can understand why. I can’t see him doing that job much longer. He has been looking for another job which I know won’t satisfy him. He works faster, more efficiently and has a higher workload than his co-workers. He rocks at his job! But he’s bored out of his mind. He totally finds the humor in 'Office Space' and 'Dilbert'.
Dilbert -- The Numbing
I’m afraid he’ll fail or not work hard enough. Come to think of it that’s my major worry. If he kicked butt then I’d know we could pay off the loans, but him failing and being left with even more loans would just break my heart. I’m almost in tears just thinking about it now.
His ‘to do list’:
He’s going to upgrade his grade 12 chem at an adult centre (yay FREE!). If he actually studies and enjoys it he will talk to a university advisor and look at our finances.
What I wanted to do to make me feel better:
I wanted to speak to an advisor *this week* to see if it is feasible….he doesn’t want to because we are on holidays. He wants to wait until he is done his chem. I just want info and to talk to someone. If it’s just too impossible, I want the whole thing to stop so I don’t have to worry.
I have searched the internet and read so much over the past week, but I just need to talk to someone at the university he’d be attending…I have been talking about it now an then to him and he knows my worries, but I don’t want to over-talk the subject b/c I have a tendency to do so. I don’t want to irritate him and make it like I’m obsessed with calling him Dr.SuperRoo and seeing dollar signs. I’m so not obsessing like that!!!!
I know he’s smart, I know he learns better ‘out in the field’, I know if a lot is riding on him he’d study, I just don’t want him to break or me to break. I don’t think I can be strong enough to support us. I don’t have great faith in my ability. I have expressed my worry to him so it‘s not like I‘m hiding my emotions, but I need to vent. MAN! I wish there were easy answers. I just want to pull on my hair over the worry, wonder and frustration I am experiencing.
Maybe he’ll look at engineering again! Hehe..he. That would be less of a worry….
Thanks for your time! Sorry about the typos. I've been typing & thinking for over two hours.
*wimper*
Ah here's something to make me feel better:
Dilbert -- The Numbing
I’m afraid he’ll fail or not work hard enough. Come to think of it that’s my major worry. If he kicked butt then I’d know we could pay off the loans, but him failing and being left with even more loans would just break my heart. I’m almost in tears just thinking about it now.
His ‘to do list’:
He’s going to upgrade his grade 12 chem at an adult centre (yay FREE!). If he actually studies and enjoys it he will talk to a university advisor and look at our finances.
What I wanted to do to make me feel better:
I wanted to speak to an advisor *this week* to see if it is feasible….he doesn’t want to because we are on holidays. He wants to wait until he is done his chem. I just want info and to talk to someone. If it’s just too impossible, I want the whole thing to stop so I don’t have to worry.
I have searched the internet and read so much over the past week, but I just need to talk to someone at the university he’d be attending…I have been talking about it now an then to him and he knows my worries, but I don’t want to over-talk the subject b/c I have a tendency to do so. I don’t want to irritate him and make it like I’m obsessed with calling him Dr.SuperRoo and seeing dollar signs. I’m so not obsessing like that!!!!
I know he’s smart, I know he learns better ‘out in the field’, I know if a lot is riding on him he’d study, I just don’t want him to break or me to break. I don’t think I can be strong enough to support us. I don’t have great faith in my ability. I have expressed my worry to him so it‘s not like I‘m hiding my emotions, but I need to vent. MAN! I wish there were easy answers. I just want to pull on my hair over the worry, wonder and frustration I am experiencing.
Maybe he’ll look at engineering again! Hehe..he. That would be less of a worry….
Thanks for your time! Sorry about the typos. I've been typing & thinking for over two hours.
*wimper*
Ah here's something to make me feel better: