Hugs. I'm so sad your life is rough right now, but sometimes we definitely need to learn to stand alone and reach out to others from a position of stability within ourselves, instead of relying on them to stabilize us. I've certainly been there in my own life. Keep putting one foot forward. You'll make it.
Come hang out in the Discord server! Just make a Discord account and click this
https://discord.gg/fv2bAVVUBQ to join. Discord can be a little intimidating, but we keep our server simple and are always happy to help people learn their way around!